insecure??

yes i do..mess

hey my dear readers..

today i rasa na post about insecure.

well act this words a lil bit confuse pada yang ta faham macam i.

TAK FAHAM ??? yeaa my bad..

i am not understand,but it doesn't mean that im an outdate person.

even before this pun,i don't even know what's the meaning of CRUSH??

yang i tahu macam tin kan..boley crush jugak.ehehe..WATEVA !

so..nowonder rite my blog there is 

Love.Confusing.Hurt.

act i got the idea to post about this title sebab...dia ajukan soalan tu untuk i.

dia tnya bukan untuk buat i terasa or so on,just wanna now my answer myb.

dia tnya,'kenapa cakap dia cantik?'

listen dear...what a words i can say to you except you are really beauty.

even setiap kali i went date with you,semua pandang.buat bunyi tikus sakit mulot,

ngorat,kacau. ERGHH!!

you know what,absolutely i have to pretend yang i okay even theres a tears in me :(

then you said that whether i feel insecure ke??

i tried cari dalam kamus what is the definition for insecure and this what i got:

 Not secure; not confident of safety or permanence; distrustful;suspicious; apprehensive of danger or loss.

bila i da faham,i cant lie that...of course i ada rasa insecure..

and its really killing me slowly inside and sumtime i cant stand with it.

you know what,menjadi seorang yang cantik/handsome ofcos semua orang nak and untung sangat2

dengan anugerah yang Allah da bagi.but as an ordinary girl,

do you know what it's like to feel ugly all the time???

whateve,how ever you wear,you act semuanya mendapat perhatian,you always look perfect.

one day,kita date around KL. then i ask you,how i look like??

dia cakap i looks beautiful ad nampak matured.and she likes so much

but honestly i'm not beautiful,as many times you tell me,

i won't believe it.i can't believe it.i try to believe it but i just cant.

for a split second i think,

"hey maybe,just maybe i am beautiful"then BAM ! i walk by that mirror,and there i am again

"you are ugly worthless piece of shit"

hmm..its okay.i wouldn't want me either.

im not trying to be somebody else,i just wanna throw that
feeling into the rubbish.thats all !!

just i can say here...jangan terlalu mengikut perasaan insecure.selagi you boleh betahan,
then tahanla..as long she/he can love you as much as they could.